Monday, January 2, 2012

To Write in 2012




Shot on a Nikon F100, 50mm 1.4 lens at f/2.0 on Portra 400 Film

I was so lucky to have some down time this past week. I came across a few very spectacular blogs that reminded me how awesome it is to just read, and write, and share. I feel inspired and renewed and hope and vow to share more of myself in the coming year.

2011 brought a lot of challenges. If I am being completely honest, I can't really think of anything good that happened in the past year. It is pretty much clouded with despair and anger, and the death of so many dreams.

I realize greatly that the death of one year and the minute it takes to turn into a new year is nothing more than that, a minute. It shouldn't greatly change your view, or your way of thinking or life, but just like a lot of us, it is a renewal and a hope for better things to come. This is what I hope for 2012.

I hope to forget last year. Leave it there. I am packing with me the things I have learned from it, but the rest has been shaken off and is being left behind never to be heard of again.

This year? I am learning to love myself. Trust myself. Take care of myself. I am focusing on taking care of my family, keeping them fed properly, keeping our home feeling like a home, making dinner and ironing. The simple tasks that I avoid so often. This year? I am learning to forgive. Wholeheartedly and completely. I realize this doesn't mean there won't be set backs and pain along the way. I realize this doesn't mean things will be great, or even good, and I know that they will more than likely be far far from perfect. In fact, things may blow up and I may have to start again. However, it does mean that I will learn so much because my heart will be so full, so big, so much more open than I have allowed it to be. It knows what forgiveness is. I won't let it forget.

This year? I will allow myself to be worshiped and loved and cared for. I will be treated like the awesome, amazing girl that I am. I will be just a tiny bit more selfish without forgetting to be selfless.

This year? I am going to make my life amazing and everything that it should be, everything that I never felt I was worth enough for it to be.

What are you doing this year?

Happy 2012 everyone!

5 comments:

Lindsey said...

My favorite,

"I will be just a tiny bit more selfish without forgetting to be selfless."

Amen sister. Here's to 2012!

Love you!

Aileen said...

AMEN.

LOVE your sky shot! Incredible. I'd blow that up big and hang it. ;)

xoxo

Ashley said...

"This year? I will allow myself to be worshiped and loved and cared for. I will be treated like the awesome, amazing girl that I am. I will be just a tiny bit more selfish without forgetting to be selfless."

Damn straight you should.

Becky Anderson said...

Kim you don't know me but I stop by your blog often. I can't even remember how I even found it but when I did I was hooked. I love your style, your passion and as the mother of four daughters how much you love your family.

I love how you express and put your challenges out there. You need to rip the rear view mirror off of 2011 and look at 2012 with hope and love. Don't let anybody or any challenge change who you are or how you express it. You are inspiring many both you and old. Keep it up. Keep your chin up and prayers are always going your way.

I would like to meet you one day.

Becky

Sell...Party Of 4 said...

My motto this year is "every little thing is gonna be alright." I don't so much make goals, but this year will be a year of change and growth. AND this is going to be the year, I am not putting down I need to lose weight. I need to love me for who I am.