Monday, May 19, 2008

I want to get off please.


Ever feel like your life is a roller coaster and you enjoy the ride for a little bit, but then your tummy starts to hurt, and you feel your lunch coming back up and you keep trying to signal the attendant that you just want to get your butt off, but each time you roll back around they have their iPod stuck in their ears and they are rawkin' out so much that they can't see or hear you? So you just end up with puke all over your new jeans, and designer stilletos, and your favorite new blouse that you bought just to go to the grand opening of the latest ride?


Ya my tummy hurts and I just want to puke.


I feel like my entire life has been one huge, long roller coaster ride. Sometimes it is so great, I can handle the "tickle pee pee" feeling. I can take the hills one after another, the steep inclines and the sudden drops, but today, well today I just, want to get off, shower, and change my clothes.


I'm not even sure if I can pinpoint why I feel this way. I guess it is because it is Monday. I don't much like Monday. I got a somewhat rude e-mail from this person in my ward, basically telling me she can't do her calling if I don't do mine. People, people. I do my calling, sorry if I have been a little preoccupied lately. Then, I didn't get to talk to one of my favorite people today. That made me sad, but perhaps it is a good thing for both of us. I hope so. Then, everyone keeps asking me about LJ. It isn't that I mind sharing all the 411 about him, as much as I can anyway, but I dunno, something about his case makes me feel utterly helpless, totally sick and leaves me feeling like I am not cut out to be a foster mother because I love too much? Is that possible? He is still with us, but again, not for much longer...they tell me two weeks...but then again they said that three weeks ago. That's what I know for right now.


So, (you ask) what do you do to help yourself feel better during these trying times? Well, I go shopping. And not just any shopping. Shoe shopping. I bought two pairs today. D.I. is getting six of my old pairs tomorrow. I can't wait to wake up...shower...and put on my new pair and take the kiddos to the zoo. That's just what I need...get off the coaster and step in the rhino shiz. Wish me luck.


19 comments:

Crystalyn said...

good luck at the zoo. new shoes sound great for walking a new walk. i hear you. i was on the spinning swing ride last week. : )

The Ashlee said...

Good luck at the zoo, that place stinks!! I totally get how you feel. Life sucks sometimes. Not a big fan of roller coasters.

Leisha said...

I always have hated roller coasters. It must be a long ride when walking in the rhino poop sounds more enticing :-) Have a great day at the zoo. Say hi to the rhinos for Landon.

Andrea Lemon said...

Good Luck in the world that isn't the Roller Coaster. I hear that the world that isn't the Roller Coaster is a lot more fun than the Roller Coaster. I'm not the one to give you advice about it though. I get off the Roller Coaster and back on so quickly that the guy with the ipod in his ears doesn't know if I am coming or going!

Cassie said...

Sorry about the crappy coaster ride. Hopefully now you can hop on the ride at Lagoon that takes you from one side of the park to the other. A nice, even, steady pace, occasionally pausing just in case you need a little break. Enjoy the zoo, watch out for poo. :)

Amy said...

New shoes and the zoo. Sounds like a great day! Enjoy the break, you def need it.

Amy and Josh said...

I understand that feeling in regards to certain things in my life . . . but new shoes sound like fun and shopping is the best! Have fun at the zoo if you decide to go and that person in your ward sounds like she need to chill and go buy some shoes of her/his own.

Christal said...

I totally hear you I think we all have days like that but new shoes always help ! Hope you had fun at the zoo your kids will love it and that should make you feel a bit better !! Sorry about LJ I think I would feel the same way. It hurts to see these little kids suffering and being moved around when you know you could love them with all your heart.Thats what makes you such a wonderful mother in every way to all these kids! You are the best hope you step in some rhino shiz and stay off the roller coaster!! ttyl

Carlykins said...

Is it one of the roller coasters at the fair? I'm sorry to say this but I laughed at your analogy not the post itself and that you are feeling this way. Oh I know this ALL too well. I hope that ride attendant sees that your face is green and slows the ride down for you to catch your breath.

Tony said...

I want a new blouse to go on a rollercoaster!

Trinbean said...

Your not the only one that has been on a roller coaster lately.....my life has been like that since the beginning of the year and still going. I want it to stop too!!!!!

Ponczoch Family said...

Enjoy the zoo! Especially with your new shoes.

Holly Reed said...

I hate drama - so I feel your pain. I can't live on a roller coaster long without going crazy.
Hang in there!

Wendy said...

I am sorry that the ride just keeps going. I know what you mean though. Hope the zoo was fun! We love the zoo, always good for a quick break!

Arianne said...

i hope you can get off the roller coaster soon!!! did you enjoy the zoo today? I hope it wasn't too busy!

moosh in indy. said...

Say hi to the Rhinos from the moosh, she lurves them. I even saw her slip one her phone number last year.
Rollercoasters suck, hope your ride ends soon.

dust and kam said...

Oh yeah - and rollercoasters :P

Hope the zoo was fun and your shoes are fabulous!

Dan and Wendy Babcock said...

Hi my lovely stinkypants. Okay, we don't have to talk about anything you don't want but why haven't I heard from you lately.....yes, I am scolding you. Can I do that? I am leaving town so it would be nice to hear from you? Or is it not nice to hear from me? :0

The Lilly's said...

If you ever want a back up career to your photography, have you ever thought of being a writer? I love the way you word things, and reading about the "rhino shiz" cracked me up!