Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Blessed.

****In an effort to help try this sound not as dramatic as it will. (And it will) I will preface this by saying he is fine...and was back to throwing things today and telling me he 'hated' me when I told him he HAD to take a nap today. (Just so you know...)****

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So, J-dawg (and I) both started not to feel the greatest on Friday afternoonish. He was fine on Saturday...not 100% but no worse. Sunday morning, I woke up with a fever, and by Sunday afternoon little man had a fever of his own...and was starting to cough. So I sent the kiddos to bed early with medicine in his tummy. I, on the other hand had chills and the blasted fever that would go and then come back...go and come back. I couldn't sleep either.

Long about 2:30 a.m. I awake to hear this awful sound. When I first heard it, I thought, "What are the kids doing up watching television at this hour?!" It sounded just like the tv was on...so weird. Well, I get out of bed, and realize no lights are on...and that the sound I am hearing is J-Man wheezing in his bed. It is then I realize, okay he must have croup. So I sit him up, rub his back...ask him to cough...try to get his breathing back to normal, which I do. He really wants nothing to do with me but SLEEP...so I let him go back to bed. (I am still shivering with chills and my fever at this time.) I grab Memms from her bed and take her to my room, send Hubbs back to sleep with Jothan with the window open...praying that the sub-zero temps help the swollen throat he obviously has.

Fast forward to 4:00 a.m. I am awakened by Hubbs, "Kimmie! Come sit with Jothan!" I run into the bathroom...half delirious myself, to my little boy barely getting any air into his little body. He was limp, and coughing and convulsing (not literally...but that motion) trying desperately to get air through his swollen throat. I run to get him some cold water...he barely can get any through, I fear that he will inhale it because he can't even relax enough to try not to breath in at the same time as he drinks...I couldn't get him to settle down. I was just holding him and stroking his little back. Flavio and I wrapped him in a blanket and took him outside. As I walked back down the hallway to our room...BAM! I hit the floor. (Fever, my son can't breathe...I am obviously thinking the worst...PANIC ATTACK?!) As I am coming out of my passed out state, I hear little Memm on my bed:

"Momma, is "Dawson" going to die?"

Tears.

"NO MEMM! He is not going to die!" (I'll be damned if that was going to happen to me...not that! NOT!" I storm to the front door...and tell Hubbs, "Take him to the ER...NOW!" (My husband is WAY faster than any ambulance I know of...and they were to the hospital in less than ten minutes.)

So they get to the new hospital in town...you know that one...if you live here you do...and they immediately pump him up on some steroids and get him on some oxygen.

Well, sometime in the first thirty minutes he got there, someone thought of the brilliant idea that J-Man needed to be moved up to Primary Children's Medical Center. So, Hubbs calls me after they begin taking him away....

Hubbs: "So they are moving him to PCMC."

Me: "Is he that bad?!"

Hubbs: "Well, the doctor up there wants to see him."

Me: "So, they are letting you drive him then right?"

Hubbs: "No...they are transporting him."

Me: "Will you ride with him in the ambulance?"

Hubbs: "Um, not exactly...see they are taking him in the helicopter."

Me: "Are you SERIOUS."

Okay...so remember how I had passed out thinking that my son was going to die in my arms because I couldn't help him, and somewhere in the back of my mind I thought he could very well not make it through this...then my Hubby tells me they are LIFE FLIGHTING him up to the children's hospital...throw all sanity out of my fevered mind at that point.

So, Memms and I...awake since early in the morn, are sitting on the couch watching all sorts of public television, when about ten minutes later I get a call from Hubbs, J-Man is okay...they are watching him in the PICU. "What?" The I-C-U. Dood!

Long story short...he is fine. Really, he is. We really aren't sure why he had to be Life Flown...only to be released 12 hours later...thankfully we do know he is okay! He is well, he was a pissy, pissy boy today, but he is alive!

The entire day today I just kept going over how he looked in the bathroom, how we must have felt, how frightened I was that I might lose him. I am reminded of what a gift he is to me. How special and intelligent his heart and mind. How much I would be lost without him.

The Spirit was totally keeping me awake on Sunday night/Monday morning. I wanted nothing more than to SLEEP and rest...but I needed to be the one to hear him wake up that first time...I hate to think what may have happened had Hubby not been laying right next to him when things went from bad to hell.

I am beginning to forget what a normal day/week/month may look like in our house...I sure as heck hope these kinds of things are not the new norm.

30 comments:

dust and kam said...

That is so scary! I am glad that Joth is okay.
You are seriously strong and amazing. I don't know how you do it.

Lots of Love.

Hope you are all feeling better.

Vic said...

Woah, that is too scary. I'm so glad Joth's ok. Are you feeling better yet?

Carrie said...

Oh my goodness! Kim! How scary!!! I am so sooo glad he is ok! Your hubby is a super hero! Are you feeling better? Do you need anything? I am so here if you do! You guys are all in my prayers! I'm sending you lots and lots of hugs! I love you!

Manda Jane Clawson said...

Holy cow that is so scary! I'm glad to hear he is okay tho!!

Cassie said...

Oh my gosh Kim, that is terrible. I can't imagine how terrifying that would be! Thank goodness he is ok. Let me know if I can do anything for you guys. Give that sweet boy a squeeze for me.

Arianne said...

WOW! that is all I can say is WOW! I am so sorry you had to go through this with Jothan. I am so happy to hear that he is ok! that is ONE more stress you needed in your life.

if he needs an Anika fix let me know and we can come over and play!!

We love you Jothan and are happy you are doing MUCH better!!!

Amy said...

Man, Kim, that is crazy! I totally would've passed out too. I'm so glad everything is ok, and I wish you a 100% peaceful week!

marci helen said...

glad all is better with the little man...how are you feeling?

Michelle said...

I am SO glad he's all right. That had to be the scariest. I hate that feeling of thinking that you might be losing your precious child. So glad you have faith and are in tune. I'm hoping a perfectly calm 2009 for you and your family.

Tim and Ashlee said...

Oh gosh! That's so scarey. I'm so glad he's okay. And I hope you're feeling better now too.

Olivia Singleton said...

So here are my thoughts...

I've come to believe that Heavenly Father gives us hard times to prepare us for even better times. By experiencing pain beyond levels we thought we could endure, He's actually just giving us the capacity to feel joy beyond levels we thought we'd ever experience. So it's my personal belief that He has something big in store for you. Something so big that He has to prepare you for the immense joy that is to come.

Amy and Josh said...

That is So scary Kim, I am glad he is OK! I hope YOU are feeling better too from what ever it was you had . . . love ya.

Dan and Wendy Babcock said...

Okay. For reals. Enough already. You know what I mean? Yeah, you have a testimony that is SOL-ID.

mrs. r said...

bless his little wheezing heart, but how freakin' cool that he got to ride in a heli. i didn't get to do that until i was like 25.

geez. kids these days.

:)

Fostervision said...

I'm glad he's back to throwing things at you. That is always the sign of a kid on the upswing!!! How are YOU feeling though? I Hope you all get lots of rest and get better soon!

Lace said...

Wow! This is one of my worst fears! It is so scary when these little ones get sick! Poor little Jothy, he must have been incredibly sick! I can't believe he got life flighted! That must have been terrifying for you and Flavio! I'm glad to hear he is doing better and I hope you are too.

Heather said...

Oh my goodness!! What a scary and insane moment to have to live!! Seriously, things are suppose to calm down . . . isn't it time to have a break yet?? ;)
So sorry!! I am glad to hear that J is doing much better!! How are you feeling? Have you kicked the yuckies yet?

Trina Knudsen said...

Super scary, Kim! Blessings come in interesting packages. I am glad everything is okay with Joth. How are you feeling?

Holly said...

This is so scary - we went through this (the illness, not the heli ride) with Robbie in the middle of summer. We ended up at PCMC too and after some steroids and oxygen he was ready to go home in 12 hours too. Kids are amazingly resilient. It's we parents who feel like our hearts may never start beating again when this kind of thing happens.

zandor said...

That sounds scary. Thank goodness he ended up being okay.

Shan said...

Holy crap. That is so scary! I am so glad that he is okay. I hope your little heart is recovered too. Anything like that with kiddos is hearbreaking and traumatic. Are you ok????

LoveYaMissYa said...

I'm so glad that Joth is ok. You are simply amazing. Isn't it crazy how we as Mom's have this 6th sense for things like that. Gets me every time. We're praying for you! Love ya.

The Lilly's said...

How traumatic for you. I'm so glad he's ok and really hope your life becomes "boring" for a while!

Amy said...

So glad he's okay!!!

Jonathan Canlas said...

holy hell. i have no words. none. really, i can't even imagine how you felt. drop me a line, you so are getting some free picts...

The Gag-nears said...

i would have had no idea what to do. The Lord has a way of reminding us of our blessing in the craziest ways! You are in our prayers! Love you! So grateful he is okay. and hope you are feeling better.

Janay said...

Wow! Glad he's okay. The spirit sure is amazing!! Hope your day's get better and better. HUGS

moosh in indy. said...

GOOD CRAP WOMAN!
Tell God you need a day off for heaven's sake!
I'm back.
Hi.
Missed you love you. See you soon.
Kiss your kid for me. So glad everything worked out okay. So glad.

Barb @ getupandplay said...

That is so terrifying! I'm so glad he's okay!

Barrett said...

That sucks! It is scary when your kid can't breath! Also scary when they have to be life flighted...and you can't come! I am so glad he's better!