Monday, December 14, 2009

This is Familiar

The instant I held Millz in my arms for the first time,
she was familiar.




At first, I wasn't sure if it was because she looked so much like her brother and sister,
or if it was because
SHE herself was familiar.

Of course, it was because she was familiar.

The first few days and weeks that she was a part of our home, a part of our lives,
she brought an
air of familiarity

to our hearts.



This tiny girl was the reason, the push, the drive of the previous three years. She was the one standing behind the veil SCREAMING for us to not give up on her. It was her spirit begging for us to not give up hope for another child to come to our home. It was her. She wanted so badly to come to us...and when she was finally here, it was with the simple, sweet, enduring ways of a baby that I realized as her mother that I already knew her inside and out.

I KNEW HER.


She. Was. Familiar.



As I look back on the almost five months since she came to us, I am in awe of her spirit. Her happy face, and the sweet love that she has for us.

She was worth Every tear. Every heartache. Every loss.

Every. Single. One.

I would do it all again for her.

To my friends still 'waiting' or still 'finding' or still 'hoping'...
don't give up.


Your 'Familiar' is waiting, standing behind an unseen veil,
waiting and hoping just as hard as you are!

She is proof:



22 comments:

Sell...Party Of 4 said...

chillz. well said. I {heart} you.

kenna said...

You and Millz give me hope.

I need to come visit soon, mmk?

Olivia Singleton said...

She is so strikingly beautiful! She must get it from her mommy!

me said...

Absolutely Beautiful!

Amy said...

This has me almost in tears. What a crappy three years endured, to recieve the cutest little girl ever. :)

Brenley said...

Thank you for the reminder! I really need that today as I remember our little guy placed in our arms two years ago today. And thinking about and feeling the sweet spirit of a child I know is to come to us, and frustrated with not knowing how to get her here. You give me hope!

mandee said...

Beautiful!

Katie said...

Best post ever! I can relate with every word written and have even said them all about my little guy. I know his spirit was calling to me, speaking to me, in a way only he could so that I wouldn't give up the fight, and I am SO glad I didn't! Thanks for the great reminder and for giving others that crucial hope. Millz is so lucky to have you for her mama! Love you!

Ponczoch Family said...

Thank you for this post. I am in tears.

Brenda said...

KIm, I love this post. I have had a similar experience with Spencer. I love your words and pictures! She is beautiful!

Holly said...

She is such a perfect baby. I know what you mean. It took us three years to get Robbie here and for several days after he was born I would just hold him and cry big tears of joy and relief to finally have him to hold.

V said...

that was beautiful. Thank you for that sweet reminder.

Leisha & Brian said...

Tears. Love that Millz. So glad she finally made it to your family.

Manda Jane Clawson said...

I needed this today. Seriously, thank you!

moosh in indy. said...

I wish I could believe you. I want to.
Promise I'll try.

The Lilly's said...

So beautifully said, it makes me wonder if Alex was doing the same thing while he was waiting for his turn. GORGEOUS photos!!

Lindsay said...

Wow! You made me cry! We are gearing up for our second 'finding' adventure. It's hard when it seems like everyone around me just had babies or are pregnant. Thanks for the 'pep talk' and I'll try to be patient while we find our 'familiar'

LobotoME said...

Congratulations!!!

Amy and Josh said...

Beautiful pictures Kim!! Gorgeous little baby girl.

Cassie said...

ah... lots of hope that girlie brings, lots of hope.

Christal said...

thank you That was beautiful!! you are awesome!

Lechelle said...

You don't know how bad I needed this today. I'm on my lunch break as I read this and now I have to figure out how to hide that I have been crying. But it's good crying now. Thank you.