Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Ever Changing



Nikon F100, 50mm 1.4 lens at 2.8, Fuji Superia 800 Consumer Film

I find that life is so beautiful. Even with trials and disappointments I am constantly reminded of how beautiful it is each day. Never more so than when I am scrubbing ice cream and pee out of my new sofa, or celebrating the blessed news of a good friend, or of a stranger, or whether I am just sitting down blogging with tears running down my cheeks knowing that I am loved by a supreme being, a Heavenly Father who is mindful of me, of my struggles, of my trials. A supreme being that whispers, "Keep going. You can do this! You are loved. I love you. Lean on me." It is through those whispers that I know I can keep going, even when it is hard and life is ever changing and all I want to do is give up. I don't. I can't. I won't.



Did you know Memms got glasses? Crazy I know. As we were getting her ready to go to big school, we had to do all of the paperwork and exams. I made her a quick last minute appointment to get her eyes checked, as well as mine the same day. (I have been having visual disturbances in my left eye for a few months and had some concerns.) We both got to go in and get our eyes dilated. My first time and it was trip to the ippy. When the doctor told me Memms needed glasses a part of me cried. I felt like the worst mother. "So, all those headaches she has are caused by her eyes?" How did I not put two and two together? Her prescription is pretty yucky. They only gave her half a prescription to start. I am amazed that she can see through those blurry lenses. I am thankful for modern technology that makes it so easy for my baby to see. Guess what? No more headaches.

Whodathunk?


As for my eye? I have a significant Vitreal Detachment. It is causing a spot in my left eye which also happens to be my photography shooting eye, this makes for an awesome shooting experience. I am quite young to be experiencing such phenomenon. However, the good news is that it will slowly fade over the next three years. The bad news, the location is near my retina, so I am on strict watch for some other symptoms that could cause permanent damage to my vision. Completely not worried anymore...just strange.

8 comments:

DisabilityDiva said...

beautiful reminder and gorgeous pics!!!

Ken Bruggeman said...

These are beautiful Kim! Great work!

Anna said...

Beautiful pictures Kim.

Emily said...

Don't you love it when you get to feel like a bad mom? Maybe someday I'll get used to it. I think Memms looks adorable in her glasses. For reals. And perhaps you need to simply sleep most of the day (and night) to speed up the healing process. Sounds good to me!

Barb @ getupandplay said...

I'm glad your eye disturbance wasn't more serious! Definitely keep a watch on it, my FIL had the same thing and it turned into a detached retina that needed surgery to fix.

I'm so happy you are feeling the beauty of this world all around you and buoying you up- you add to the beauty of it every day.

Amy and Josh said...

love the pictures Kim-how do you do it? Thanks for your thoughts-I know I need to lean on Him more than I do.

Sharon Johnson said...

Stunning images as usual. But, holy moly you shot that on Superia? I bow to you.

I am glad your eye will get better and glad bug got glasses. She Look adorable.

Camille said...

oh I love your writing style, Kim! Thank you for reminding me of the beauties in life! And your daughter looks absolutely gorgeous with glasses. i remember getting mine at 7 years old - have had bad vision since, and I'm just waiting for the day when my girls complain about the same... you can't help it! Take care of yourself so those photographer's eyes stay healthy!!