Nikon F100, 50mm 1.4 lens at 2.8, Fuji Superia 800 Consumer Film
I find that life is so beautiful. Even with trials and disappointments I am constantly reminded of how beautiful it is each day. Never more so than when I am scrubbing ice cream and pee out of my new sofa, or celebrating the blessed news of a good friend, or of a stranger, or whether I am just sitting down blogging with tears running down my cheeks knowing that I am loved by a supreme being, a Heavenly Father who is mindful of me, of my struggles, of my trials. A supreme being that whispers, "Keep going. You can do this! You are loved. I love you. Lean on me." It is through those whispers that I know I can keep going, even when it is hard and life is ever changing and all I want to do is give up. I don't. I can't. I won't.
Did you know Memms got glasses? Crazy I know. As we were getting her ready to go to big school, we had to do all of the paperwork and exams. I made her a quick last minute appointment to get her eyes checked, as well as mine the same day. (I have been having visual disturbances in my left eye for a few months and had some concerns.) We both got to go in and get our eyes dilated. My first time and it was trip to the ippy. When the doctor told me Memms needed glasses a part of me cried. I felt like the worst mother. "So, all those headaches she has are caused by her eyes?" How did I not put two and two together? Her prescription is pretty yucky. They only gave her half a prescription to start. I am amazed that she can see through those blurry lenses. I am thankful for modern technology that makes it so easy for my baby to see. Guess what? No more headaches.
As for my eye? I have a significant Vitreal Detachment. It is causing a spot in my left eye which also happens to be my photography shooting eye, this makes for an awesome shooting experience. I am quite young to be experiencing such phenomenon. However, the good news is that it will slowly fade over the next three years. The bad news, the location is near my retina, so I am on strict watch for some other symptoms that could cause permanent damage to my vision. Completely not worried anymore...just strange.