...I don't want to be the mom. I don't want to be the wife. I don't even want to be me.
(Everything is *basically* okay. Just wanted to make that clear.)
Really, all I want to do today is SCREAM and SHOUT and RUN AWAY.
Do you ever have days like this?
Gah, even as I sit here I am just ANGRY.
I HATE being angry. It is so ugly and so consuming. GAH!
I just want to be her. Carefree, without a worry, without a care.
Was my life ever like this?
(Everything is *basically* okay. Just wanted to make that clear.)
Really, all I want to do today is SCREAM and SHOUT and RUN AWAY.
Do you ever have days like this?
Gah, even as I sit here I am just ANGRY.
I HATE being angry. It is so ugly and so consuming. GAH!
I just want to be her. Carefree, without a worry, without a care.
Was my life ever like this?
I totally have days like this. Yesterday was one in fact. I wondered why it wasn't acceptable for me to throw myself on the floor and kick and scream at the top of my lungs.....hope it passes soon for you! (hugs)
ReplyDeleteCan I be her too?
ReplyDeleteLOL thats when I ditch the family and find a good girlfriend and pretend like my life doesn't exist. Its very healing.
ReplyDeleteI have days like this. I was lucky enough to spend two years being just like her. Kind of. Still had to be the second parent, but it was okay. I'm just glad my daughter gets the childhood I didn't. She doesn't have to grow up really fast.
ReplyDeleteMy day in a nutshell!
ReplyDeleteoh man, anger and I have been like peanut butter and jelly. It does stink, it is ugly and it FEELS so yucky!!!! Oh how it would be to be a child again. Some days I say that I don't want to play house anymore and that I just want to be a kid again!!! Life is SO simple. I hope that when you wake up tomorrow that it is a new day and that the anger doesn't cross over and cloud another day. Hope whatever is causing it gets resolved sooner then later.
ReplyDeleteIt's good you feel like that about anger, because it's also an addictive emotion.
ReplyDeleteStudy the scriptures. It will help change the feeling. This is know from experiences just last night!
Yes I too konw how you feel. I have had that kind of month. Every day is confusing, not one single day has been the same, I have been led different directions and have lost site on all of the REAL things that I should have been concentrating on. I am having a hard time adjusting back. I just hope that your trip back to sanity and responsibility after your needed fit (we all need them) is a great trip. I hate that we all have to be responsible with age. Love you bunches!
ReplyDeletedood, what the heck??? i am adding this to the agenda.
ReplyDeletepraying for you.
lovies.
I think most parents have moments like this. That's when its time to do something that distracts you from all the pressures and responsibilities of being the wife, the mom, the photographer, the homeowner. Gah... I'm stressing myself out thinking of all those responsibilities ;-)
ReplyDeleteoh Kim, I feel like this all too often these days. And the anger just boils sometimes and I don't know exactly why . .
ReplyDeletelack a sleep could add to it, but I go to bed some nights hoping all those frazzled mommy pieces will wake up whole and happy.
i think it is time for us to get together?
ReplyDeleteyou were my source of venting on moments like this...remember my (shh, inlaw probs)gah! need I say more?
i do know how to listen. I promise.
you let me know when.
I'm sorry things are rough right now and I am SO sorry for your friends. What a terrible, unspeakable loss that seems so senseless. You will all be added to my prayers. Take care and if all else fails, maybe you can run to Sev without a bra again. Admit it, you kinda liked it! Love you!
ReplyDeleteI think we all have those days. There are days my husband just doesn't know what to do with me. Should he yell back at me, or just leave? I find it works to run around our building in the freezing cold, then come home and cry.
ReplyDeleteKeep your head up! If we didn't have bad days, we wouldn't recognize the good.
I think we all have days like this no matter what we wish so days are so like this !!
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