*If you are a dude, be it known you were warned*I finally made it to "THE" doctor's appointment I have been putting off for almost a year. I am not certain why I didn't want to go. Okay, so, yes I do, it is all these extra pounds I have kept after having Memm that I did nothing with (that was part of it) and believe me, I saw the scale yesterday. It wasn't pretty. The good thing? I have the best OBGYN ever. Most people probably say that, and that is great, but after the experience I had with my previous GYN wilst in the throws of finding an answer to all of my problems years ago, this guy is a bit of stardust.
You know how we hype ourselves up when we go, tell ourselves it is the worst day of the whole year? Ya, it isn't that bad. For some reason I remember it being worse. So, anyway, back to the whole year thing. It was fear. I am afraid. I am afraid to pursue something if it needs pursuing. I am being vague here, some things I am not ready to vocalize out in blog land. Suffice it to say, I am glad I went, and got the ball rolling again, and hopefully within the next six months we will either be blessed to carry another child, or we will find our birth mother. Or, after the phone call I got yesterday, we will finally be approved for foster care. (Our worker comes on Jan. 3 to do our homestudy...then we'll be finished.) Wahoo! I have to say, when you do "all that you can do" there is a tiny bit of frustration, but with that also comes peace. Peace in knowing that Heavenly Father knows I am doing all I can do. He hears my prayers, and that in his time he will bless us.
Here's hoping you all are having a very special and memorable holiday season...
8 comments:
crossing my fingers for you!
You WILL WILL WILL be blessed again. I know it. You are a great mom to the two little cuties that you have and I KNOW that there is another one out there whether by your own body or anothers that will be blessed to have you as his/her mother. LOVE YOU TONS!!!!
i too know you will be blessed with more children!
I am glad you went to your appt. too. I never mind going either because I like my ob too. I think it does make a difference if you like your ob or not because it isn't the funnest thing to do!!!
I'm so glad you like your OBGYN! It seriously makes a huge difference! I'll be praying for you that one (or more) of your righteous desires works out for you.
That's one reason I'm dreading moving to Utah is because I love my OB/GYN here!!! Good luck to you! You're incredible!!!
You seriously deserve nothing but the very best! We'll keep you in our prayers!!!!!!!
That is a thing to dread, but I am glad things went well at the OBGYN, it is nice to know you are in good hands with your doctor.
I hope the foster care works out if things don't work out with finding birth mother soon-you guys are great parents and will bless the life of whatever child may come your way. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Thanks so much for your comment on my page, I really appreciate it. Isn't is funny how in the midst of our extreme frustration if we totally just let go and give all of our frustration over to Heavenly Father that the amazing peace that envelops us is so warm and it's like falling into floating silk sheets? AFTER the trial of our faith comes the blessings!! And remember we are all in this together!
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